1. |
Looking for a back door
03:36
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you’re not listening
you hear what you want
you’re not listening to me
why do you need to make me pay
you know I’m just looking
trying to find my way
looking for a back door to heaven
I’m looking for a back door to heaven
from high above I’m sure to see
everything before it happens to me
you’re not good for me
you take what you want
you’re not good for me at all
why do you need to make me pay
you know I’m just looking
trying to find my way
looking for a back door to heaven
I’m looking for a back door to heaven
from high above I’m sure to see
everything before it happens to me
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2. |
Where you once belonged
03:44
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looking back on your life
you don’t like what you see
so much wasted time
thankfully hasn’t caught up to you yet
and you’ll never forget
where you once belonged
now everyday you play the part
whatever it takes like it or not
the lonely upset only serves
to unsettle the nerves
what result did you expect
from your neglect
you make it so difficult for yourself
you live with no regret
but you’ll never forget
where you once belonged
now everyday you play the part
whatever it takes like it or not
the lonely upset only serves
to unsettle the nerves
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3. |
Blown away
03:24
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there you are across from me
shooting like a star and fading
into the black hole of misery
with no complaining
I’m blown away by everything
I’m blown away by everything in my head
I’m blown away by everything unsaid
there you are tucked away
hiding from humanity
a message in a bottle lost at sea
bobbing aimlessly
I’m blown away by everything
I’m blown away by everything in my head
I’m blown away by everything unsaid
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4. |
The worst
04:11
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its obvious she’s turned on me
its time to call her bluff
let it be my legacy
she’s finally had enough
it must have been my attitude
to which she was adverse
she never saw the best in me
she only saw the worst
all right I’ll admit
this too shall pass
I don’t care one whit
I’m not afraid to ask
did I mean so little
its hard to get from under it
she’s looking down on me
from disdain to utter contempt
its a matter of degrees
once we were inseparable
but that bubble has burst
why can’t she see the best in me
instead of the worst
I’ll admit
this too shall pass
I don’t care one whit
I’m not afraid to ask
did I mean so little
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5. |
Voice of reason
04:25
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is it time to open up and let it show
remember the last time we fought
it wasn’t that long ago
but who got beat
listen to your inner voice of reason
in matters of the heart
listen to your lover
when under the covers or falling apart
its the ideal
but is it real
really real
you’re not alone if you don’t want to be
misery would love nothing more
than your company
its yours to keep
listen to your inner voice of reason
in matters of the heart
listen to your lover
when under the covers or falling apart
its the ideal
but is it real
really real
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6. |
Open and close
03:44
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if its obvious why are you asking
I am curious about what it means
you deny there’s any clear motivation
but it seems deliberate if you ask me
case open and closed
I already know all I need I know
case open and closed
we’ve been here before
there’s nowhere to go but up
without an audience is it performance
is it an act when all the worlds a stage
is it genuine when everything is scripted
or do we improvise whats written on the page
case open and closed
I already know all I need I know
case open and closed
we’ve been here before
there’s nowhere to go but up
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7. |
Losing my mind
04:51
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I’m afraid I am losing my mind
all my clear thoughts left behind
you wouldn’t want to be in my shoes
loosening coming unscrewed
well I’ve come this far
with little upset
I haven’t lost it yet
is time on my side
or in decline
losing my mind
bless me or depress me
break me but leave no scar
how bad is it going to be
if i commit to living healthy
I wouldn’t wish this on anyone
waiting patiently to come undone
well I’ve come this far
with little upset
I haven’t lost it yet
is time on my side
or in decline
losing my mind
bless me or depress me
break me but leave no scar
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8. |
Death defines everything
04:06
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every time you try to tempt fate
you’re reminded what it is you get away with
life is but a game of give and take
so make no mistakes you can’t forgive
death finds everything
so make the most of what you’ve got
no matter what you find when you foray
these old feelings never go away
when all the light fades to black
you’ll know its too late to turn it back
death finds everything
death defines everything
so make the most of what you’ve got
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9. |
Bigger man
04:02
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you catch yourself freaking out
there’s no certainty without a doubt
divided up or multiplied
what does your math signify
you manifest what you want to be
a bit like you not a lot like me
we may never get it right
but we should do the best we can
look to stop rather than start a fight
be the bigger man
a patchwork mess of this and that
not quite sure what you’re getting at
you can’t manifest humanity
born out of violence bred of greed
in the darkest corners we seek reprieve
its too much to take honestly
we may never get it right
but we should do the best we can
look to stop rather than start a fight
be the bigger man
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10. |
Short stack
03:08
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got high hopes but a poor track record
me thinks I’m done with her for good
put down more than I can afford
cross my fingers and knock on wood
I’m all in with my short stack
let luck be a lady tonight
got big ideas but no ambition
all talk no time to follow through
held back by my inhibition
whats a simple man to do
I’m all in with my short stack
let luck be a lady tonight
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11. |
I think I know best
04:17
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what you ask is the point of it
it really felt like
I could take on anything
where do I place is it first or last
I think you know that
i think I know best
its a lifetime
its a lifetime of uphill climbs
where do you find loneliness
in a world full of people
is there anywhere
I am here more or less
I think you know that
I love you best undressed
its a lifetime
its a lifetime of uphill climbs
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12. |
Forever
03:15
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its kind of hard to answer
when you don’t know what it means
to unburden yourself
you never were a dancer
unless you had a drink
to loosen your shell
your disappointment
is more than you can bear
your disappointment is forever
you convince yourself its justified
to give up on your dreams
you settle too often
the current pulls you under
and carries you downstream
before it spits you out
floating in the ocean
following the breeze
thats what its all about
your disappointment
is more than you can bear
your disappointment is forever
you forgive yourself for feeling bad
but that doesn't change a thing
whether or not you like it
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13. |
Its come up before
04:09
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I’m not taking over
only this conversation
needs a little direction
take it easy a second
lets get things straight first
before the elaboration
I know something about this
its come up before
its not a new thing
I know something about this
its not a new thing
its come up before
I’m not trying to be clever
its unavoidable
in every subtle notion
its inevitable
when neither of us can stop
the forces put in motion
I know something about this
its come up before
its not a new thing
I know something about this
its not a new thing
its come up before
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14. |
Off the wall
04:43
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she don’t need me anymore
I think she’s getting bored
she don’t need me anymore
she has one foot out the door
money aside
I’m not sure she really likes me at all
comfort aside
I’m not sure she really likes me at all
she forsakes me
you know its driving me off the wall
that she don’t need me anymore
no not at all
money aside
I’m not sure she really likes me at all
comfort aside
I’m not sure she really likes me at all
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15. |
I feel it too
03:29
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whatever it takes
to lay emotion down
to put aside our feelings
to come to common ground
I feel it too
believe me I feel it too
I feel it too
that’s why I’m waking
that’s why I’m making up
whoever it breaks
or whoever it harms
own their mistakes
so true to form
I feel it too
believe me I feel it too
I feel it too
that’s why I’m waking
that’s why I’m making up
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16. |
Negative thinking
04:17
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feeling down on your luck
and like giving up
thinking you’ve had enough
of hurting but acting tough
you start to cry
are you lonely tonight
are you sinking
in the depths of despair
negative thinking
all these ups and downs
in backward towns
shape the way you feel
turn you inside out
and make you cry
are you lonely tonight
are you sinking
in the depths of despair
negative thinking
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Arjen Ordeman Surrey, British Columbia
Singer-Songwriter, DIY recording artist, one man ensemble, strummer, plunker, groove maker.
Guitar driven melancholy and contempt; just mood and music...
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